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GIFT HORSE

A place to dissect
A place to reflect
A place I know isn't my home
I've lived here forever
And I know nothing better
But somehow I've never fit in
Not back in the school yard
Or downtown at the cool bars
Although many times I've tried to play that part
But the act is so daunting
The wide smiles I'm flaunting
To nice strangers who don't care to know me
They're close then they're distant
Then they lose all their interest
I'm a gift horse until I open my mouth
I resent those who are content
Who live in this instant
Those who don't get swept up in false glory
Those who can plan for their future
Settle down with a suiter
I didn't want to set roots so I quit watering the plant
But despite my intention
The rain came and it seeped in
The vines grew and they crushed me like ivy
Every street stained by rejection
Or bridges burnt in states of manic depression
I beat me black while the town paints me blue
These hoops that I've jumped through
Time and time again - learning nothing new
Where the days spiral like an ever-present time loop